After all my advice for myself before Thanksgiving, I followed some of my goals and failed at others. It’s okay though.
Wednesday night, I went to the Balloon Inflation event as I was planning to watch the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade balloons get blown up. I was wet and cold, but beared it anyway, figuring when would I ever do it again? It was a neat New York experience. Afterwards, I went downtown with a friend to meet up with three other friends hanging out in Penn Station waiting for us. We had a shot to warm up our bodies, then headed out to our next stop in the Meatpacking District. We bumped into a cool looking Beer Garden and went in for a drink. Then we hit up two more places, the first where we toasted to the midnight of Thanksgiving, then headed to another bar for some dancing. This we stayed at until they turned the lights on and kicked us out at 4am. How did I manage to make this, up for over 23 hours straight, since I went to Crossfit that morning before work, I was up at 6 and went to bed around 5:30. Although there was a small part of me who knew if I went to sleep it would be that much harder for me to wake up in the morning. I did it though. And I even woke up two hours later at 7:30 to shower and pack up for the weekend. Then I headed to the grocery store in order to food shop for the dinner Friday and breakfast Saturday I was planning. This took me an hour and I was on my way to my mom’s.
At mom’s I had some caffeine and helped her cut some cheese and veggies. My brother and sister came upstairs and began cutting as well, so I had them help me cutting all the veggies for the chili the next morning. Thanks bro for all the onions! When that was done, family began to arrive. Mom put out apps and I had a few pieces of cheese and walked away. I kept my afternoon under wraps, eating some yogurt and veggies ahead of time.
Then dinner was served!
I made my plate, lots of veggies and protein, and then I added a taste of sweet potatoes, rice and stuffing. I stayed away from the biscuits and anything else I was only wishy-washy on. I ate half the plate with a glass of wine and was full. So instead of forcing myself, I wrote my name on the plate and stuck it on the counter, which I went back to later in the night. This kept my snacking at bay, since I had part of my dinner left, and it alleviated as much picking as I could.
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Dessert was easy to resist for some reason at the time. There was ice cream cake, cheesecake, and cookies with ice cream (could you tell my family likes ice cream?) I didn’t have dessert at the time, but definitely snacked on cookies later that night until they were eaten by the 11 people that stayed at my mom’s for the weekend.
After snacking a bit that night, and having a second glass of wine, we put on some movies and hung out.
The next morning we all woke up with shopping on the brain. I quickly put up two different chilis in crockpots to cook all day while we were out. My mom had made a french toast bake, which I had a taste of and we left for some shopping time. I had a cup of coffee midway through the mall and not much else. We got home about 6, all hungry with the house smelling delicious. Mom had put out the leftovers and we pigged in, eating a combination of leftovers and chili. The ground turkey, red bean chili was almost finished before I had saved one container for myself for lunch throughout the week. I ate this over cabbage, figuring it would be a good day for some detoxing veggies. The green chicken chili went over fairly well also, but I had two containers left of that. I limited my leftovers to a little rice and potato salad (since there was no more stuffing). However, this night was much worse with the snacking.
Since we hadn’t eaten anything all day, it was harder to resist. On top of that, I was exhausted. I barely slept in the two days and I spend 8 hours at the mall shopping. I snacked on pub cheese with pretzels, cookies, and pepperoni with a few chips. Everytime I told myself to stop I would, then shortly later I would go back to it. This all until I went to sleep about 1:30 for a second day in a row. Talk about not getting enough sleep, it was so unhealthy for my body, and I still haven’t gotten an appropriate amount of sleep and won’t for the rest of December, until vacation at least.
Saturday morning we woke up early again (about 7:30) and I started cooking breakfast as we were talking. I made two kinds of egg bakes from recipes I adapted off of pintrest.
The first, I figured would be for the family. I put frozen has brown potatoes on the bottom (most of the bag), then I cut up a package of frozen breakfast turkey sausage. Then I mixed up a dozen eggs with some milk and poured it on top with half a red onion. For the smaller tray, I used one portion of the potatoes and 3/4 a package of the turkey sausage. Then I added the red onion with some left over veggies from the Thanksgiving veggie platter, including pepper, broccoli, and carrots. I also added some spinach and topped it with a container of egg beaters with a little milk also. I baked these for 45 minutes covered in tinfoil. Then I took off the foil and topped each with cheese (the regular one with a Mexican blend and the smaller one with fat free cheddar). I baked it again for 15-20 minutes until it was all bubbling.
From the family’s comments, many of them enjoyed the veggie one better anyway, so next time, I’ll reverse the sizes. We only had a little of the veggie one left.
That day we did more shopping at Target, then headed to the movies to watch Mockingjay Part 1. Damn movie theater popcorn is so freaking good, I ate a bunch of it with some peanut butter MnMs. Awesome!
We went home and I packed up the million bags I had from my Black Friday shopping and headed home to go out that night. I agreed to host another event, but once I was home and brought all my bags upstairs, I just wanted to sit and veg out on the couch. Instead I got dressed and headed out before I could get too comfy. I ended up having a nice night, and stayed out a little longer than I anticipated. Maybe because I spent more time with guys I just met than the group, but regardless I hung out till after midnight yet again. Where is this energy coming from?
The next morning, I woke up to tutor and at the rest of the veggie bake cold on my way to my first session. I was fine that first one, left with 3 peppermint scones and ate them all on my way to the second session. Damn! I was positive this would be a good day. So I tried. I ended my second session and walked the 2.5 miles to my third and final session of the day. After that I walked to Brooklyn to get a massage I scheduled as a treat.
It was supposed to be a 90 minute massage that ended after 60. At first I was pissed, but scheduled myself to go back for the rest of it next week, so I guess that can’t be too bad. Although I was so tired, I stayed awake for most of the massage then walked the 2 miles home. I unpacked and cleaned my apartment until my neighbor came over to hang out for a bit. Then I was tired and went to sleep. I snacked, which except for the wine was fine in terms of staying within my budget for the day.
Monday I forgot to set my alarm and missed my Crossfit class. I brought all my leftovers (the chili, cabbage, fat free sour cream, a sandwich and yogurts) to work to eat as my meals all week. I did fine throughout the day and enjoyed seeing my Chiropractor again after such a long weekend. By the time I was ready to walk to class, of course it was raining again and I couldn’t walk. I took the train there. After class though, it was clear enough to walk home. When I got there, I heated up a package of frozen cauliflower in a garlic sauce. I topped it with grated cheese and hot sauce. That was satisfying for that time of night. I knew I needed to get stuff done, but also knew I needed to sleep, so I gave up earlier than I should have. But I felt better about it today.
This morning though, I woke up hungry and on my way to school I treated myself to a wake up wrap from Dunkin Donuts with my coffee. Tuesday is my early morning at work and I can’t get my liquid happiness from across the street. My coteacher was out today which meant my day was all off. Not bad, just more hectic than normal. I ate breakfast, and then started work. I ate my chili for lunch and afterschool, I headed for my tutoring session. I walked in a panic trying not to be too late since I had to dismiss an entire class today. But I made it and they weren’t even expecting me. The little girl was not happy to see me and had a fit. Her mom told me to reschedule and I left! I rushed for nothing, but at least I get paid… and I got to take the 5pm Kettlebell Kickboxing class instead of the 6pm. The 5pm class has less people and this way I was out earlier to come to the Library to work on my final project which is due in less than two weeks.
I’m freaking out only a little and should be working on it, but I needed to post to keep me focused. I weighed in today and was a pound heavier than last week. I guess after a holiday weekend, that’s okay with me, but I was hoping to stay down. I have a busy couple of weeks and my goal of being 10 pounds lighter by Christmas might not be happening. But I would love to be in my 10s by the time I need to wear shorts again. If I’m focused I can at least be down a few pounds, even with a ton of dinners and happy hours coming up. Too many parties in the holiday season. But I will prevail! My good mood is kicking in and I’m committed to head to Crossfit in the mornings and working out in the evenings if I have time, considering my finals and such. I’m trying at least not to snack, like the person sitting next to me is on candy and other fattening shit I don’t need now. I’m not even interested in it, but if given the chance, I know I would mindlessly eat it. Especially since spending a few nights in the Library means late nights, early mornings and little sleep. This all means I’m hungrier in general and eat more to stay awake.
I just need to make sure right now that I am eating as best as I can, and right now, I think that means more snack foods to keep me powering through the time at the library and working out as often as I can. I’m going to try to get to Crossfit at 6:30am 3 times a week for the next 3 weeks. Then I’ll decide if I can continue to afford it, but right now, it’s the best time for me because it’s out of the way and I start my day on a positive note. I enjoy working out in the morning, I just wish I could do it on my own.
Although its getting cold, I can still walk as well. However, it sucks when I need to dress warm for when I’m staying around outside at lunch duty or waiting for an appointment. At the same time, when I’m walking with my backpack on my back and my gym bag on my hip for more than 20 minutes, its hard not to start sweating. Then I have this awful disconnect where part of my body is cold, and part is hot and sweaty. Then I get to something like school or a tutoring session with a sweaty back and pitts. Then I grow cold because I’m wet. What’s a sweaty girl to do? Dress lighter? Carry a million extra clothes? Don’t walk? I don’t know what’s the best of the evils. I guess I’m going to have to figure out how to walk around New York with an even bigger bag than I already do, that’s a problem I think.
But it’s all for the best! The best for me, and it’s me I’m worried about. I am finally feeling happy with myself again and need to just juggle my responsibilities and my fun times! It will be worth it in the end though, I know it will be… every time I get down to around 160, I head right back up, but the fact is I’ve made it down there 3 times already in the past few years. I can do that and more, I just need to stay motivated and supported by those around me… time to ditch those around me that don’t support me, which aren’t many at this point, but there are new people joining my life that I need to make sure are as understanding as those who are close to me. I got this. I just need to be confident in myself!