It’s been quite a while since I posted, yet I’ve been thinking about it daily. Life has just gotten crazy in the past few weeks, and longer. Although there has been little posting, I have held strong to my goals, and three weeks later and about fifteen pounds lighter, I think about what has happened to get me here and what I will face in the next few weeks.
I’m still so confused when it comes to my body and how I gain and lose weight. I know sometimes I overeat and gain weight, but when I’m working out regularly and moderately intesely, I can overeat and not gain weight. Just the opposite, I know I can eat really well and gain weight. Maybe this is from sodium and water weight, maybe it’s from under eating or my body adjusting to a recent lose. But what happens when it has no justification that I can see?
When I tried to get back on track, I found many opposing forces at play. I came back from Miami and headed to the farm. Of course I ate more than normal and full fat foods, but I ate salads to curb my hunger with each meal. I gained almost 8 pounds on the farm.
Then I got home and restarted my diet in full force. I lost 12 pounds within the first 6 days. Then I stayed at that weight for a whole week. Not up or down anything. That has not happened to me ever, usually I oscillate at least a portion of a pound. Then I gained four and a half from one night of corned beef and cabbage at mom’s (yum!)
and since then I’ve consistently been decreasing. But it’s been hard work! I know I might never understand and I just need to learn how to navigate my body as it is, but this is frustrating sometimes. And I know I shouldn’t complain because then I lose fairly quickly, but I just don’t know why.
As normal, there have been ups and downs on this journey thus far. I have been sick, had tons of people sicker than I around me, taken on more roles than I should have and am behind in my own work. But I am moving forward with getting healthy. I have been cooking and planning my meals, being prepared and holding strong to my will power, even when faced with temptations.
In the past few weeks, I have tried out new recipes and have some tweaks I would make, but overall made some good new decisions and will rotate these into my normal meal plans.
Some typically recipes of mine include: chili, green chicken chili, chicken or veggie soup, goat cheese & Greek yogurt chicken salad, taco salad, and any other salad with grilled chicken or the like on top.
Two weeks ago I started shrimp wraps. For this, I chopped up cabbage for detox purposes, onion, peppers, and baked this in a casserole dish for 40 minutes and then added shrimp and cooked an additional 10 minutes. Then I separated this into portioned. Each night for dinner, I heated up the mixture, scooped it into lettuce leaves and topped with salsa and light sour cream. Delicious!
That particular week, I realized I wasn’t eating breakfast, as the second I would walk into work, life got crazy. I can’t eat breakfast as soon as I wake, so when I get to work is my typical breakfast time. However, when there are so many responsibilities pulling at my time, I find myself pushing breakfast to the side. This is particularly hard on days which lunch is late, two days a week it’s at 1:30 and one day it’s even as late as 2:20. When I start my day with the kids at 8:40, that’s a long morning! Last week to combat this issue, I started to make my own coffee and stick it in the fridge to cool. In the mornings, I fill my blender bottle with 10oz of strong coffee, a few tablespoons of fat free creamer and a scoop of vanilla almond whey protein powder.
Last week in addition to a new round of my breakfast, I also made a new lunch, as dinners were going to be on the go with late nights at work. I tried a new veggie mixture. I wasn’t sure what protein I wanted with it, so I tried something new and added some quinoa to the mix. I baked peppers and onions,(again) along with green beans and mushrooms with eggplant in a homemade sofrito seasoning… All veggies were on sale, and I couldn’t pass them up. I have gotten into this baking my veggies in a casserole dish so I can multi task and not stand over the stove while they are cooking. However, I did cook the quinoa on the stove and divided into my containers. Once the veggies were done, I added them to my containers and covered them to cool. I wanted to add cabbage again but my baking dish was full, so instead, I cut it up and tossed the whole warm veggie mixture over it each day for lunch. Talk about filling! There were some days I couldn’t finish the portion I allotted myself per day.
This week, my new creation dish was inspired by things I had lying around my pantry. When I was meal planning, I wasn’t sure if I was going to have to move or not, as my lease was going up significantly. I had some cans of pineapple slices and a bottle of teriyaki marinade which I haven’t used. I saw some picture of grilled pork chops with pineapple and decided to try a version of it. I, as a grown up, have never made myself pork chops before. I usually cook chicken or ground turkey or beef. Other than that, it’s mostly veggie dishes or fish for me. So this was a real accomplishment in my thinking about protein. I marinated a family pack of bone in pork chops in half the bottle of teriyaki sauce and some juice from the pineapples. I also cut up peppers and onions and did the same. Then next day I baked the veggies. In a separate pan, I baked the chops in the last 10 minutes of cooking, I added the pineapple slices to the top. Once done, I cut out all the bones and weighed out about 3 ounces of meat, placing each serving in a container with a portion of the veggies. This I topped with the pineapple again and let cool. Once each container is heated for dinner, I stick a healthy scoop of salsa on top for some tang and eat. I’m so happy with the flavor profile, I think I might need to learn to make a healthier, homemade version of teriyaki sauce. Ahh! I can’t wait to get home for dinner this week.
Today I was at a workshop, as was I yesterday. However, I walked yesterday from my workshop to school and then again home, totally about 8 miles. The previous day, I attempted to walk home, and made it half way. Last week I walked home twice, about 4.5 miles each day. This has made me extra hungry today. It was a hard day to stick to my plan and the food I brought with me. At the end of the workshop, the presenters put candy in the tables. This was tough to resist, but I didn’t have any of it.
I had all my snacks before 3pm and attempted to walk downtown. Mother Nature had other plans, as I barely made it 2 miles before the drizzle grew harder and the wind froze my fingers and toes. I was forced to train it the additional 3 miles down to my meeting.
While waiting, I was starving, yet I couldn’t decide what to eat that wouldn’t break my food bank. I settled on a banana and iced coffee with skim milk after walking in and out of many food establishments. Afterwards, it was still rainy and cold and I couldn’t walk home, so I hopped back on the train. I ate dinner as planned and kept my picking tonight to a minimum, not like the past two nights where I’ve indulged in some nuts with whipped cream and strawberries…. A scrumptious combination.
In general, I’ve allowed myself to be easy going in the rest of my meals. Some canned soup and greens or yogurt and a small box of cereal for lunch, fiber one bars and fruit or cottage cheese for snacks.
As for now, I’ll take the confidence growing back in myself and the way my clothes fit me.
And I will take this weekend in stride, as I’m going to my friend’s wedding. I already have planned to eat a healthy breakfast and lunch and ordered the healthier dinner option (I hope). If I can keep the cocktail hour, drinks and dessert at bay, I’ll be fine. I can dance it off! But regardless of how this Saturday goes, Sunday I’ll be back in track. I have about 3 months to camp by this point, and even though it seems like it might not ever be shorts season, as it’s still freezing outside, I know this time will creep up on me and this year, I’ll be prepared. Prepared not only to start the summer at a happy weight, but also to end it. But first, I anxiously await spring and the warmer weather that brings this city to bloom.
And goodbye to the snow for the season!